Last night was strange for me, all weird thoughts coming to my mind. And this is just an honest attempt to give all those thoughts a shape. I am not sure I will be able to do justice to my thoughts and feelings and write seamlessly.
I generally don’t write but…..thanks to the creatures around me…. Whom I really don’t feel like talking to… and further thanks to two persons, whom I was so comfortable with and they went away from Hyderabad for the reasons they were not sure of and the irony is they are HAPPY there…… stupid things…
Whatever I write here is as per “I”, but mind you I have my own definition of “I”, which really I cannot reveal because I fear that will act as a Trojan horse against me.
Anyways let me start….
BELIEF, FAITH and STRONG are the three words I find sexy, sexy because they simply appeal to me. I have been always motivated by these words and when in melancholy I look up to these three words. Let me try to give my definition of these entities that I try to hold inside me.. But
Statutory Warning: This is my entire prerogative. And if I am conflicting with someone’s views I don’t give bullshit damn.
By BELIEF I mean the convictions, where by you can stand in testing times. Belief in your Parents, your spouse and you, that’s it, end of half the problems on this beautiful earth. Belief in oneself, I guess injects smartness in a person. But may be there is something else that injects something akin to smartness in to a creature. The smartness of the kind that makes a person destitute of the realizing power that guys around may also be smart, who sits back and enjoy probably. I am not sure what nomenclature is for that something. Here is your call boss. If you understand you can christen it.
FAITH, I find it hard to describe. It depends on your conscience. A confidence on the thing you know is right. It’s easy to do something bad in the name of the faith. But faith does also mean the clarity of intensions. It’s not chauvinism of any kind in any way.
Its part of your instincts I guess.
When I say STRONG I mean both mental and physical strength. But mental strength comes way up in the list than physical strength, for a simple fact that physical strength ages. Mental strength is something one can practice over the years, based on the experience. There are three stages to make a mind strong viz. Observe, Analyze and Prepare. Physical strength is needed for you to survive in day to day world and sometimes for the loved ones you care for. You have to support your near and dear in any case and you have no choice and for that you may need both kind of strength.
I find the world around me interesting. Each person around me is unique yet we relate to relate to each other in some way. A human heart I guess searches for comfort, coziness all around that is akin to the comfort a baby finds in mom’s arms. There are so many funny and interesting things around yet I can list out things that I find so funny and I cannot understand.
Ego: First Thing I really don’t know what an ego is. Like for an instance, if I treat a person very special, I may expect the same special behavior back. If I don’t get it back; does it hurt my ego? Why do I expect on the first place? Does giving something means you want something in return? Are relationships a business? Why do I fail to respect other person’s integrity? You tell me what is ego. And I will answer all these questions.
“This is Life”: The most suitable reason in any situation I get to hear from anybody. The universal cause. I really feel like thanking the person who first said this. But guys this is beyond my scope. I don’t understand this.
The Female species: Its good for me that I don’t write much on this. Every other girl I met I find beautiful.. hehehehhe. But I guess I am to blame for this, I never gave myself a chance to know them or may be the other way. I really don’t know.
There is so much I can write but I guess this is enough for time being. I guess I am kind of relieved. Want to hear more from me. Next time guys. This is the first dose… I guess its not heavy!!!
